I have felt like a spiritual onion in the last few weeks, as each day, the Lord has peeled off some layers. So many of us have been hit by attacks in the last couple of years that we were not prepared for, and that wasn’t because we didn’t know how to be ready; we were just caught off guard.
The biggest key in spiritual warfare is to be ready for the enemy’s attack. When God is at work, the enemy will try and find a weak spot to take us down. For me, that vulnerable spot was the prophetic in 2020 when the prophets missed it. As a result, I began to question most of the teaching I grew up with; the truth is, I didn’t need to question the teaching perse; I needed to ask why and how the prophets missed it.
This morning when I woke up, I heard the Lord say, “stir up the gift that is in you and build your faith back up.” My mind immediately went to the Scriptures; stir up the gift of God given to you, and build yourself up in your most holy faith, praying in the Holy Ghost. 2020 was a year of testing to show us where we were at so we could make necessary adjustments and prepare to move forward in a stronger faith.
I thought my faith was strong, but I found that I wasn’t as secure in who I knew God to be and was easily led away into a subdued relationship with the Lord, allowing myself to be convinced that God doesn’t speak anymore. The enemy used charismatic chaos to steal my relationship with the Holy Spirit. But here’s the thing, I can’t blame the devil; I have to take responsibility and get back on my faith, begin hearing the Spirit again, and reorient myself with the Word.
Yesterday I started to quote Proverbs 4:20-22, and I couldn’t repeat it. I was shocked, several months had gone by without me speaking those verses, and they were gone from my memory. The enemy’s goal is to steal the Word, and we can’t allow that to happen.
The enemy is a master scripture twister; we have to watch for him taking shots at our faith with high-sounding knowledge. Here’s the thing, I can’t wallow in how I got off track; I can’t wallow in how I had a place of an easy attack. I have repented, and now I’m getting back in the right place. I’m going through old journals and allowing the Holy Ghost to rekindle the fire. I picked up a Bible from several years ago and started flipping through the pages, and there was so much life in that Bible! The Word is living and active, but the enemy wants us to study the Bible in a stuffy manner for information and not transformation.
There was a time when bible reading and study were life-giving. In June of 2020, I noticed in my journals that the life started going away. The enemy began working in 2019 to get me to move away from who I knew God was; I fought it up to June of 2020. In 2021 I didn’t celebrate Passover because I allowed myself to be convinced that I was negating God’s grace by embracing the Jewish roots. Hear me clearly, God gives us people to help instruct us, but at the end of the day, we are to study to show ourselves approved and work out our own salvation. God isn’t going to ask what denomination we belonged to or what system of theology we held; He’s going to ask, did we receive His Son and walk in His ways.
David prayed in Psalm fifty-one, restore the joy of my salvation. The only way we will win the battles ahead is if we are walking in the joy of our salvation and are sure-footed in the Word. James 1:8 says, “a double-minded man is unstable in all his ways.” On the other hand, a single-minded, Word-focused man is stable and can handle any firey dart that comes.
I have decided that I am getting back on faith! I am taking hold of the revelations the Lord has shown me again. There is life in my studies, and questions I’ve had for years are being answered. It’s time for each of us to get solidly convinced by the Word for ourselves. There are good men of God who do not believe in the gifts of the Spirit; I cannot be one of those men.
The most important thing the Lord has taught me in this season is that my theology does not have to be so meticulously defined. I don’t need an answer for every little thing. God is God, He is big, and His ways are not ours. His calendar isn’t even the same as ours! So we have to quit approaching Him with an analytical mind and come to Him with the heart of faith and allow our minds to be renewed with the Word of God.
I would encourage anyone reading this post to take time to get alone with God and say show me the warfare from the summer of 2019 up until April of 2022. All the stuff in the natural is a manifestation of the realm of the spirit. All that stuff in 2020 was rooted in the war of the spirit, and we need to analyze time from that perspective. So many of us have felt beaten down and tired; it’s because we have approached a spiritual battle with natural thinking and natural skills.
Read the books of Ephesians, Colossians, and James this week. Let faith begin to be rebuilt or fortified in you. I fell to the attack because my faith wasn’t prepared for that type of attack or the cleverness of the enemy. With the help of the Holy Spirit and a more consistent faith walk, that will not happen again.
Don’t condemn yourself if you have been in a similar position for the last few years. So many in the body were not prepared, but you repent and rebuild. Keep pressing toward the mark of the high call.
- 2 Timothy 1:6
- Jude 20
- Hebrews 4:12
- John 5:39
- Romans 12:2